Dealing with Frustration and Brokenness

Heavenly Father I glad You are in control and not me. I am glad you show mercy and grace, because honestly there has been plenty of times I would rather not. I am glad that You know what is good for me even if I don’t. Most of all, I praise You for allowing me to vent without punishing me. 

Holy Spirit I come to the throne room and lay prostrate before the throne. I am nothing and I am broken, defeated, and feeling useless. I know that You know more than I do so all I have is to be able to trust You. Apparently now is not the right time or season for me to get to do a job I have trained to do long ago. I praise You for the time of humility watching people with lesser time, less experience, and much younger than me move into the job I so wanted. So, I accept that You know better than I why. Help me to work through this without sinning or overreacting. Help me to be accepting to my station, my job, and my current plight in life. 

Holy Spirit I also kneel before the throne realizing how broken I am. I am not the person I should be or want to be. I ask for forgiveness and for some direction of where to go from this day forward. I ask that You help me with my attitude, my pride, my inability to listen, my lack of control with my weight, my lack of focus, my selfishness and all other things I cannot name as right now. I ask that You help me to start again, offer myself as a living sacrifice, accept where I am and focus on You not myself. Help me to only seek what You seek, to desire only what You desire, to only walk where You lead, and to speak with Your Spirit using my mouth. 

I lift up my eyes to the hills—where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip—he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord watches over you—the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all harm—he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore. I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, And in His word I do hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than those who watch for the morning—yes, more than those who watch for the morning. [Psalm 121, Psalms 130:5&6]

The end of all things is near. Therefore, I will be clear minded and self-controlled so that I can pray. Above all, I will learn to love others deeply, because love covers a multitude of sins. I will make every effort to offer hospitality to others without grumbling. I will use the gifts you entrusted me with to serve others, faithfully administering God’s grace in its various forms. When I speak, I should do it as one speaking the very words of God. When I serve, help me do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen. 1 Peter 4:7-11 sa